The month of January exemplifies new beginnings. January starts the beginning of every year and people around the world make vision boards and new year’s resolutions in order to motivate themselves to achieve goals before the year ends on December 31.
However this year, I did neither. Instead, I spent the last two weeks of December and the first two of days of January, physically sick.
I woke up January 1, 2020 feeling unmotivated, fighting with internal battles/insecurities, and feeling like there’s something more I need to do this year. I convinced myself once again that everyone around me with similar gifts like mine are more talented than I.
But then I wondered how can this be? How can someone fulfill the unique gifts and talents that were placed within me when they are uniquely designed for me? I then realized I must be careful with my thoughts, and know when to reject the negative, and unproductive ones, because the mind is a powerful thing. LOL!
I’m not sure why I was in a funk. Could it be a lack of sleep or because I was not feeling well for two weeks? Whatever the reason, I will not allow it or anything else to “excuse” me from soaring this year.
On January 2, 2020, the kids and I got up to get ready to go to school and I to work. It was business as usual.
The following day, I was in “a better place, spiritually” and I felt better internally.
As I headed to the shower, my six-year-old son walked over to me, rubbed my face and told me he loved me. This act was not out of the ordinary. My baby boy does this every day. He loves his momma and I never have to question that! But this day was different and his usual expression of love was not so usual. It was almost as though he was looking straight through me when he spoke those words and touched my cheeks.
I instantly received the strength and motivation to “keep it pushing”. My attitude immediately changed and I began to realize my children deserve to live their lives to the fullest by first witnessing me successfully reaching my full potential!
The Gurls and I decided the theme for this month is, “As for Me and My House, We will Serve the Lord.” With the physical and emotional inner struggles I was experiencing, I believe my son’s affections and January’s theme are my path for helping me stay focused.
I began thinking about how my family and I can get back to some of the basics at home by starting our day out on a positive note.
My husband can confirm I am a mess every morning. I fuss and yell at everyone, especially if we are running behind schedule by even one minute. It has caused me, the kids, and him to have rocky mornings. But why? My home should be the one place that is a safe haven. I want to do something different. I must do something different.
Before we left out of the house on January 3, 2020, I did something different. I gathered my 5 children together and told them how much their dad and I loved them—how much God loves them, and how we were going to incorporate God into our everyday routine, starting that day. We paused at the kitchen table and read 2 Corinthians 5:7. We talked about what the scripture meant and how we are going to spend time with God every day.
The looks on their faces were priceless. They listened intently and asked questions. Even my four-year-old nodded her head in agreement to choose God every day.
“As for me and my house, we will serve the Lord!”
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